Some time ago, when I was young and foolish, I thought of myself as a writer. I would always try to write down my thoughts and ideas. When I was in school, I found myself happy to write essays about stuff that I had no idea about. I always found a way to comment on life. I always saw myself as someone that stood outside of the crowd and looked in the window. I thought of myself as an observer of life not a participant. Is that what it takes to be a writer? I don't know if I always enjoyed writing. It was always just something I did for fun or out of boredom. Even now I write because I am bored, but I also feel a sense of freedom. This is a world that I can be me. I can truly express who I am and what I think. I always put on a facade of a goofy unknowing kid. Here I can be who I truly wish to be. I can be a well spoken and unlighted person. I can step outside of the person I project and be the person I want to be. That is a relief. I don't pose as a smart person, or something that I am not.
In today's post I think I will actually air myself out. This post will be more for myself then anyone else.
I don't think I have much experience in life, yet I always find myself giving advice. I don't fancy myself as an intellectual, yet I find myself roaming the halls of wise men. I think I can explain who I am in a couple of words, a planned spontaneous oxymoron. As I write this blog I am thinking about my younger days in college. I never saw myself as a well read or experienced person, but I always found myself as someone who always gave advice. I didn't give advice when it wasn't wanted, friends would seek me out to ask, and for some reason I always had an answer. I always found that odd. I never really told them that I didn't have too much life experience, and I never did. I have helped people out of situations that I have never been in my life, and it all worked out. I also found myself in leadership positions. I never thought of myself as a take charge person, I am by all means not. I am not one to jump head first or run in front of the pack. I would always be in a group. Someone takes charge and before I know it I'm in charge. I ended up delegating and ordering people, and they seemed to follow my lead. I never really understood why that happened.
There are many mysteries in my life. Things happen to me and for me at different times. I always accept it for what it is and move on. I think one day I will find my answers to my questions. I am not going to look for the answers. Knowing how my life usually works out; the answers will present themselves to me. Again. I find myself rambling on.
I also wanted to thank those who actually read my posts. I would love to read comments and hear from you.
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The End
I am who I am for the sake of those who need me to be me.
-Cezar-
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what up cezar - nice blog dude..sounds like you're doing well there.
ReplyDeletelooks like the university of life is making you learn good stuffs. we are all rooting for you cezar! keep those good life experiences coming
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